Is this Goodbye?

I'm at a crossroads with this blog. I have rewritten this entry numerous times and have delayed sending it out, but I think I better do it soon. I don't want to abandon anyone, but here's the situation...

I am reading more and more about energy healing, how our DNA does not determine our health, how our thoughts affect our health and everything else we bring into our lives (or block from coming into our lives). I've been reading extensively about Law of Attraction, reading and learning energy healing techniques such as EFT, and have joined the Global Coherence Initiative which focuses on people coming together to promote health and well-being for ourselves, our families and friends, as well as the planet as a whole.

There is just SO much more out there than medical doctors who practice based on old science and make educated guesses on cures, and give people life ending diagnoses because they do not know or are not opened to the realm beyond regular medicine. They tell people they have 2 months to live, and people die 2 months later because they completely believe the authority of a doctor. Sometimes only to find that it was an incorrect diagnosis! Why do we put so much faith into doctors? They have good intentions, I do not discount them entirely, but we put too much faith into them.

Law of Attraction says that everything you think, everything you imagine in your mind, everything you talk about with people, everything you feel in your heart will manifest in your life. What you think/feel becomes reality. You pick... illness, or wellness.

Here's the biggest example of this in relation to my son's dis-ease. We got the diagnosis, we changed the diet, we got a clean scope, we went about life as usual and were happy and healthy. I one day I felt that I should be a good mother and seek out more information about it. I joined some support groups, got bombarded with terrible stories of worst case scenarios several times a day, was told outright that even though he seemed to be doing ok today, most likely, his health will go down the tubes any day, and fast. That there is definitely no cure and this will be our lives, forever. At our next scope, guess what? It was terrible! I'm sure that my talking about EE and how terrible others have it, and how it's incurable, and crying about it, etc. was picked up by Jason, and he then proceeded to internalize it and make it real. Since that day we have made some changes. I have turned off ALL notifications from support groups. I have declined all invitations to attend meetings. I am sure to tell the doctor to talk about things only with a positive spin. (I would love it if I didn't even have to bring Jason into the room to see the doctor, but of course, she needs to see him.) We don't ever talk about EE at home. We avoid it as much as possible except for when it's simply not avoidable. And guess what? We're doing MUCH better! We talk about health, and how wonderful it's going to be to eat various foods again. He feels healthy every day. I feel hopeful that this will go away. The only times I feel pulled back into the EE world is when I get emails about this blog, or a stray email about EE for something or we need to figure out how to handle a situation that involves food at a party or something, or we have a visit with the GI or Allergist.

People everywhere are fighting against cancer, aids, war, etc. and all we're getting is more of it! Fighting against EE is no different. Awareness of this dis-ease is growing, along with the increased number of cases. According to Law of Attraction, we cannot defeat what we do not want by focusing on it. Anything we give focus on, we get more of.

So here is my dilemma... this blog brings EE more into my awareness, and yours. I know for some, it helps you to feel that they're not alone. I can appreciate that. But I can only focus on what's best for myself and my family. I no longer want to hear the "truth" of others and then make it ours. I wish to focus on health and well-being and make that our truth, despite the collective agreement by others to label symptoms into illnesses and then call them incurable.

Here are some other thoughts on this:

• We resist wellness by focusing on illness
• Attention to what you do not want is what creates it and holds it in our experience
• Any thoughts about illness are unproductive

Instead we should be thinking about:

• Perfect wellness is our normal state
• Stop fighting illness and relax into our wellness
• For every moment we focus on anything other than our illness, we become wellness
• The only way to help others be well is to live well ourselves and be an example
• Giving our attention to wellness brings us wellness

So basically, this blog is a focus on our illness. It's something that gives me negative feelings when I write about it, talk about it or hear about more cases about it. It keeps our attention to what we no longer want. It's counterproductive to where we want to be, healthy and eating whatever we choose! And therefore, we need to let it go.

I am considering no longer posting to this blog, and possibly turn it off completely in due time. I just wanted to give everyone a heads up. I started this blog on a complete whim one day and never expected it to reach as many people as it has. I appreciate the people who are following us and hope that you can find answers and peace and excellent health in your lives.

Quick Follow-Up May 2009

I just wanted to make a quick update in regards to our most recent scope. We went in Tuesday morning last week and all went well. There is just so much involved for a 15 minute procedure, not to mention the toll it takes on the kidos.

One of my biggest pet peaves while pre-registering and having Jason get prepped by the nurse was all of the negative comments, unintentionally of course. "Oh, poor kid, what does he eat." "Oh, how terrible." Etc. Well, I hear this and think that he's most likely hearing it as well and it just puts thoughts into his head. He really only needs to hear the good stuff, really. They shouldn't be saying all of those things out loud! They should stick to "Oh, he's such a cute kid." You know?!

We are very appreciative and grateful that the scope was clear! Jason took some awesome photos of his esophagus and he is very happy. The biopsies confirmed that all was clear.

Now, we continue on the Flovent steroids and the same diet, everything "as is" for at least six months. We'll revisit with the GI at that time and decide what to do. Of course, we're all thinking the next step is to reduce or eliminate the medications. And only then can we focus on that diet.

Our intentions are to use this six months to continue the EFT and focus on all of those supposed allergies, along with the enzymes and probiotics. And by that next appointment when they say to get rid of the Flovent, we go ahead and do that, and he has no symptoms. And then maybe we'll rescope and see that he's still clear even without the steroids. And then we'll do allergy testing and simply astound the Allergist when he sees that Jason is no longer allergic to the approximately 50 items from the previous testing. And then we'll be on our way to eating more foods. And we'll rejoice!

Here's to the next six months!

Hi Doc, I'm still fine! Let me prove it to you!

We went in for yet another regular GI visit. The labs showed this time that his iron and hemaglobin levels have increased! Almost, but not quite to normal. This is the best they've been. And he's been off the Cimetidine/Tagamet for 2 months. So, geez, maybe I was right about the meds being part of the problem, not the solution? He's had zero issues without those meds. We did also start giving iron along with Vitamin C at the same time, which could have helped with absorption as well. Or perhaps it was all the EFT tapping I did on Jason's behalf in regards to his body absorbing iron. There is no way to know for sure, but we will continue on with the iron, EFT, digestive enzymes and no reflux meds.

We'll be doing a scope next week to see for ourselves that all looks well. It's hard to hold him back from getting well because we don't have the doctor's orders or a photograph of the esophagus to prove to us how he already feels. If you feel good and focus on health and feel good and happy most of the time, then good health is your natural birthright. It's only when doctors and other specialists keep wanting to talk to us about how things are incurable or that we will have to deal with this forever that we block the perfect health and wellness that is our right.

February GI Visit - All is good

We went to visit the GI again today.... just the usual "I feel fine, why do I have to always come see you?" kind of visit! Jason did just come down with his first ear infection at age 5 and is on antibiotics for that, but otherwise, he's doing fine.

We talked to his GI about the newly introduced digestive enzymes, and she was supportive of that. She said they certainly wouldn't hurt anything, especially if they're just your regular non-prescription enzymes. She also supports the probiotics we introduced last summer. As well, she's good with us trying to find better vitamin and mineral supplements that are hypoallergenic.

Iron is still borderline almost normal, but not quite. That seems to be the case. So I asked her, being a Mom who reads up on things and has questions of my own, if we could take out the Cimetidine since it can cause absorption issues, especially with iron. She was all for that, so we'll take it out of his diet and see how he does. We're totally expecting him to be fine since they never made an improvement when they were first introduced 2.5 years ago! Perhaps that will help with his iron absorption. The other thing we were told to do to help with the iron is to give it with about 60 mg of Vitamin C per 0.6 ml of the ferrous sulfate. Crossing our fingers that this all works and then we can at least eliminate an unnecessary drug and the iron supplements. That would mean we'd be down to the Zyrtec and the Flovent along with regular enzymes, probiotics and vitamins/minerals. Oh yeah, and that peky restricted diet.

No scope until the summer if all goes well with the removal of the Cimetidine. And I doubt we'll revisit with the allergist until after the next scope, so that means we wouldn't be re-introducing foods into his diet any time soon.

That's the hardest part for us (me), is wondering how he's doing on the inside. He looks and feels great on the outside! I guess I should not get ahead of myself. But instead be super grateful (and I am SUPER grateful) that he feels great every day and is growing and thriving just perfectly. And when the time is right, we'll add some foods back into his diet. He's managing pretty darned good considering what he's not currently eating!

We are also continuing EFT treatment to help improve health, remove allergies, and let go of any underlying issues that might be contributing to this condition. For example, the other day I said that we want to get rid of some of his medicines... he said "I don't want to get rid of my Flovent spray!!!" Why??? Only he can really know. Perhaps it makes him feel important, special, or something. Yet, he's been asking a lot to eat chicken and other things. So hopefully he'll realize that eating chicken, etc. is more fun than having an inhaler!

And onward we continue!